im finalllly out for winter break and ive pretty much been eternally laying around the house. i was looking forward to finally hanging out with katie unitis but noooo, theres a ridiculous snow storm outside. hopefully it wont be like this on my birthday or im giong to be severely pissed. maybe i should actually clean my room today....maybe.

Ive spent a laaaarge portion of the past few weeks with justin, who is awesome.and amazingly sweet. and the other portion broin it up with friends and going to alot of shows. Ive started slowly removing meat from my diet and ive learned how to cook, and ive been eating alot of amazing food lately. ive realized that the only things i really need are awesome people, hardcore, and great food...and reality tv.

i realized today that theres only about a month and a half left of summer and time goes by fast. ive been hanging out pretty hard and i think its time to step it up even more before time runs out. more hangouts, more dancing, more foolisness. its time to let the bodies hit the floor.

life is cool, itll be even better when i finally go to the victorias secret semi annual sale today! i dont know what it is about getting new underwear that makes me feel so good. its so prettty.

im trying out for ante up on wednesday, im a little nervous even though i shouldent be. i just hope theres not anyone trying out that is better than me. 

i miss my special ed kids, and i need to go visit them this week. i think about them alot and wonder how theyre doing. i miss going on walks with them, and making "abstract art", and playing catch. i even miss joshua stealing my shoes off of my feet and making  foghon noises, haha.  i reallllly miss robbie. he graduated last year. robbie was 23 but his brain was the same as a 6 month olds so thats how he would act. whenever i would come into the room a big grin would spread across his face and he dstart clapping his hands. i would blow bubbles for him and he was completely fascinated by them. i love the joy that the kids get out of the tinietst things like bubbles, keyboards, and playdough, and how excited katy gets(shes the only one who can use words to communicate) when she gets to say hi to a new person. i dont feel sorry for them beacause of what society calls thier "disability" beacause theyre so happy. sometimes i almost wish that i could be like them. i cant wait to escape from school and be able to be with those kids everyday, and learning from them. people dont seem to realize that even though theyll never be able to read or write and some cant even talk, they have sooo much to teach us.

i woke up at 730 this morning and no matter how hard i try i cant go back to sleep. fuuck.

if i decide to leave my house tomorrow, i might go to that show in westland with rich adn hes gonna buy me the grilled cheese sandwhich that he promised me months ago. i think the show might be cancelled but hopefully he"ll buy me free food anyway. the melted cheese might soften my heart.


if not  i can always count on the myspace music page to shine a light into my life, as demonstrated below:




hahahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhahahahahahahahahaha

this brings back memories.

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